Sigh

I do have a happier post coming...just tonight I'm consumed with memories of ex's. I just can't completely move on. I feel like I gave everything I had to a couple of them, everything. I tried so hard to what I could to make them happy. I wanted so much to be a good girlfriend, a good friend. And they didn't want me. No matter what I did, they didn't want me. Fast forward to now, It's almost been a year single. I miss giving myself that way to someone, but how can I do that when every nice guy I meet I can't seem to find chemistry with? I try so hard and it just doesn't seem to come. I gave everything....and they didn't want it.