And I was like, Yeah..Whatever.

Date with boy A was fun. I saw boy B last night.

For the first time since I can even remember I'm completely apathetic towards any sort of romantic relationship. I'm almost not sure what to do with myself. For years, there has been hope, faith, yearning, aches, pains, love, heart break, etc. and I have continued to press forward searching for an end.

The past week my want and need for a relationship has become obsolete. I can truly say with conviction that I do not care. I don't.

Is it strange I care that I do not care? I don't feel like I've "given up" but I really don't care to put forth more effort. Maybe next week I'll care.