My thoughts are really convoluted today. I guess we will see what comes out.
I do feel lonely. Mostly I'm just afraid that my flaws are too great and no one will ever want to accept those as a part of me.
The rain keeps pouring. Not necessarily for me, but for my family. So much is happening, so many lives changed, so many emotions. I've turned mine off. I stop myself from crying because I just can't do it anymore. I'm too tired. I don't have the energy.
I have no desire to date. None. I want to work on finding new things to focus on. Do service. Take care of myself. Feel good.
I wish I didn't love Dr. Pepper so much. It's made me fat. I feel the same way about candy. You'd think after the waking up with wrappers stuck to my legs incident that I would have had a wake up call. Nope. Still love it. So much.
Love you guys
4 years ago
5 comments:
I'm so sorry that things really suck right now.
And does Diet Dr Pepper taste the same? No caloried!
Diet Dr. Pepper is God's gift to fat people.
Hey B -
I am so so sorry to hear how you feel. I totally understand in a way.
Keep your head up kiddo
C
1) You are not fat, you know it. You are basically one of the most gorgeous girls I know.
2) That stage sucks when you feel lonely, I was just there when I was missing my ex/best friend a while back. If you wanna talk, let me know, I love talking about this kind of stuff.
3) We should really hang out soon, your to darn cute.
4) A while back I had no desire to date either, I would get offended if a guy would even touch me even though I wouldn't show it.
5) Even though I am dating a lot, I still feel like I am being picky that no one would qualify, and not letting anyone in my life in that way (relationship).
Love your writing, lately I can relate completely! ahhh. ;)
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